The other day, I told him about how I had to work at Guess this week. He asked if I was nervous, and I said, "A little bit. All the girls that work there are super tan, and put together, and fancy... and I'm not really like that." He replied with, "I don't like those girls..." with a smirk on his face.
Not that I have anything against the people that work there, because to be honest, they were some of the nicest people I've ever worked with. Overall, they were the friendliest, I think. It's just, he got what I meant, and the way he said it made it seem like it was well, me, that he liked. When it comes to writing, we paraphrase, we write metaphorically, we use puns, analogies and clever phrases in order to stimulate your mind and figure out what we mean. When it comes to writing, this works. When it comes to members of the gender that we're attracted to, not as much. Not as pleasing.
Speaking of working at Guess, today was my last day. I worked there for the week of Black Friday. My cousin is the manager there. I can't stay past this week, because apparently it's against the rules to hire a family member, even if it's through marriage. It's unfortunate because I actually kind of liked the job, and my cousin is a great manager. But I guess that's what rules do; restrict.
Frequently I look at people and I wonder what they would do if I just walked up to them and hugged them. Is there a chance that they actually really needed a hug, and that it would make their entire day? Maybe it saved their life. Some people may not care that they don't really know you, or weren't expecting the hug. Is it more awkward to hug someone you know, or is it more awkward to hug someone you've never met? But then, I take it to the next level. Instead of staring at the person you admire, why not just go right up to them and kiss them, and see what happens? If they push you away, move on with your life. If they don't, you're all set. You know. Of course, don't go up to just any cute girl or guy and have your way, but if you know them and have developed feelings, and spent time staring at their lips, why do we wait? It's programmed. It's all programmed. They're all rules. How can someone follow the rules if we don't know the boundaries?
I just had this guy ask me on a date, to the movies or out to dinner. Literally, just now. I told him that I wasn't comfortable yet, that I had to get to know him first, and he said a stroll around the falls would be a good way to get to know each other. I met him online. I'm not afraid that he's going to murder me, or kidnap me, or anything like that. When you meet people online, some you know you'd hang out with in real life in a minute. I can think of at least 10 people I would hang out with right now, if I could. Some are even guys. It's just, once in a while, you contemplate. You can just feel it, and if it feels weird or awkward, I don't like it. I just don't. He's a really nice guy, too. I've been dying to walk around the falls with a boy, but it's not always that easy. It ruins the experience if it's just any boy. I'm not sure I see the point if I'm not going to feel comfortable. I think that if he came up to me, and kissed me, I would push him away. But I can think of someone who I wouldn't push away, and yet, he isn't the one asking me to walk around the falls. Not only does life play the game of silence, but it also breaks the rules.